When you look up into the night sky, the percentage of black space to shining star matter is incalculably more in favor of blackness.
– Matthew -14 Perhaps this is why Jesus remained silent when he was accused.Shining my “light” illuminated my vulnerabilities – and highlighted my insecurities. I know that Christ calls us to shine his light, but why is it such a fight? We were there to grow in love of the Lord – to share his work in the midst of the craziness of motherhood, his encouragement when we felt despair and his grace in failures. The light still remained in my soul, but I took my eyes off of God. When we do this, we hide the work he has set forth for us to do. As much as I was looking to be loved and accepted, I wanted to shine an encouraging word into each of their hearts. I placed the value of my light on the women in my sight. The truth is, God’s glory, his radiance, and his brilliance are not dependent on the responses of others. And, He will be who he will be - independent of me. But, when we live based on the light that is within us, we are truly living. He was teaching me to let him work out what was his to work out. But, as I stepped into the spotlight of vulnerability, a dark cloud cast a shadow over me. I went in with a flame ready to ignite the group’s passion for the Lord, but I left with burnt ashes in my wake. After much soul searching, I realized I hid my candle – out of fear of judgment. It does not depend on reactions, perceptions or judgments. To hide his light, to squelch its power – is to hide the saving and redeeming work of Jesus Christ. When Christians are going through a series of tests – perhaps a sickness, financial trials, parenting struggles, marriage issues, or even religious persecution – and yet they don’t complain and they don’t argue, this is how they can “shine like stars in the sky” (Philippians ).